With Courage


With courage I will slay the dragon
That hurls blazing fire into my dreams
Hissing flames, obliterating wishes
Imagined over years, yet so precious
They crumble in the face of terror

With courage I will seek the valley
As he follows, gliding, stalking
And the wisdom of the trees will hold strong
Forged over centuries that no dragon
Could penetrate or break its shield

And when I have amassed the power
Of the ancient woods, collected its
Secrets hidden within the pines and soil
I will rise up the mountain and thrust
Into the leviathan’s heart its final blow

And when he is dead, I will not grieve
Though he had warded away
The other ghouls I could not face
But with courage
I will take the first step
Into the valley of life
Without his shadow

I strongly believe that creativity, and sharing creativity, takes fearlessness — the courage to open the floodgates of passion, expression and emotion that we so often keep pushed deep down.  It’s more than just about producing music, writing or any other piece of art.  It’s about working to gradually break down the walls that prevent you from being who you are.

Happy Creative 2015!


The winter blahs and pesky flu bug are enough to suck the songwriting inspiration straight out of anyone’s soul — mine’s sadly included.  Although one of my biggest goals for 2015 — ah, no, not an NYR — is to take the songwriting muse by the horns, the creative aspirations have been temporarily laid to rest as catching up on Sherlock episodes takes top precedence (man, I love that show).

So what did you all get up to this holiday season?  And did you decide to take the plunge with a big goal for this big year? :)

~ Cafe

“Ghost Town”

Your heart’s a ghost town
Drive by baby, ain’t a soul to be found
Think there’s a hole in your chest
‘Cause the beating’s at rest
Let me give you a temporary fix
To start it up again

When You’re Going Up to the Mountain …

It’s been a while, cafe goers.  It’s been a while.

Well, the past month has been quite the roller coaster ride.  And it all started with me returning from my 5-day hiking trip with two sprained knees >_<

On Day 1 of the hike, my right knee had already waved the picket sign in protest.  Four more days of hiking on unforgiving, rugged terrain ended up over-extended everything else.  I was going forward on nothing but iron will.

And a song that kept me moving in my moments of sheer pain and agony: “Up to the Mountain.”

This song has always been really inspirational to me, but it took on a whole new meaning when I was literally hiking up the mountain range!

“I went up to the mountain / Because you asked me to / Up over the clouds / To where the sky was blue / I could see all around me / Everywhere / I could see all around me / Everywhere”

DSC_7934It’s also been a motivator for me when life has felt like a struggle.  Life really is like how this hiking experience turned out to be …

Sometimes you have to climb the steep uphill, just trying to keep up with everyone else.

“Sometimes I feel like I’ve never / Been nothing but tired / And I’ll be working ’til the day I expire / Sometimes I lay down / No more can I do / But then I go on again / Because you ask me to”

DSC_7430Sometimes you have to face your fear (of heights :S), take the plunge and trust that you’re gonna make it in one piece.

“Some days I look down / Afraid I will fall / And though the sun shines / I see nothing at all”

DSC_7465Sometimes the road seems unchanging without the end in sight …

DSC_7717And sometimes you can’t seem to see the bigger picture (or the forest from the trees) …

DSC_7549But hopefully you’re taking the journey with someone who, with a smile, nudges you to keep going :)

“But then I hear / Your sweet voice / Come and then go / Come and then go / Telling me softly / That you love me so”

Sometimes you have moments when time slows down and you’re able to catch glimpses of what you’re doing this all for.  And those seemingly little successes along the way are really what matter the most sometimes.

“The peaceful valley / Just over the mountain / The peaceful valley / Few come to know / I may never get there / Ever in this lifetime / But sooner or later / It’s there I will go / Sooner or later / It’s there I will go”

DSC_7566So enjoy the journey while it lasts.  I know the (steep) ups and downs aren’t always enjoyable and oftentimes pretty painful. But if we can learn from them and use each experience as ammunition in building our self-confidence and self-belief, then we will reach that damn mountaintop (and yes, in this lifetime) :)

The song “Up to the Mountain” was written by Patty Griffin and was inspired by Martin Luther King Jr.’s speech, “I’ve Been to the Mountaintop” — the last speech he gave, the day before he was assassinated.

I’ll leave you with one of my favourite renditions of “Up to the Mountain” — this one is sung by Kelly Clarkson.  She doesn’t sing the last verse, but I love her performance.

Which song inspires or motivates you to keep going when times are tough?

~ Cafe

“Leaving for France”


Hey cafe goers!

I finally got a new song up!  Feels really great to have another creation out there.

So, thought I would write today about songwriting … literally, about how I write a song.  I’ve definitely established a process that I feel comfortable with, but I’m really interested in knowing what other people’s creative approaches are as well!

In the meantime, here’s the making of “Leaving for France” …

Lyrics: Whether I’m collaborating with a lyricist or I’m the lyric writer, I feel most comfortable starting with the words.  I really admire people who can take an instrumental track and find words to put over the music.  I’ve tried it and it ain’t easy!

I’ve been lucky that my lyricist collaborators have all been open to me changing up their lyrics if needed.  Sometimes reading words on a page isn’t the same thing as singing them.  So that could mean parsing some of the phrases, moving words around in a line for better flow, or suggesting alternative words.

But really, I don’t mess around with the lyrics too much.  I always view it as the lyricist’s story and it’s my job as a musician to bring that story to life in the best way possible.  So I want to keep his/her vision of their story intact as much as I can.

Chords & Melody: I usually figure out both of these simultaneously.  What this looks like is me sitting with my guitar next to my keyboard, playing whatever comes to mind and typing out the chords and vocal melody on my laptop.

When it comes to the music, I just go by whatever sounds “right” to my ears.  There’s a lot of theory that could help one out in songwriting — and I’ve been learning it slowly — but so far, my instincts have been doing most of the work.

Inspiration: Sometimes, writing music can be so frustrating!!  You want to produce something great, but what comes out initially leaves you totally uninspired.  When that happens, it’s time for some intervention!  For this particular song, I of course checked out some YouTube videos of French songs to get me in the right mindset.

One of my faves is “Les Feuilles Mortes” which is known as “Autumn Leaves” in English.  Well, I was totally floored by this rendition of “Autumn Leaves” by Eva Cassidy.  It’s not in French and it’s not like the song sounds like “Leaving For France” — but her artistic integrity and beautiful phrasing are what really inspired me to do better for my own song.

Song Interpretation: At some point I’ll do a song interpretation exercise to take the songwriting from a more technical to artistic level.  First, I have to figure out who I am as the “character” singing this song.  When was I in France and why?  Where am I now?  What happened right before my first line that provoked me to sing about these amazing memories about the vineyards and such?

So, in my story I’ve been working as a waitress in New York for the last couple of years.  I picked New York because in my mind, it’s as city as you get and quite a huge contrast from the image I have of France.  I just got home from a really long shift at the restaurant.  Took off my coat, changed into something comfortable, tied my hair up and poured myself a glass of red wine.

I climbed out my window to sit on the stairwell outside (hm, not sure why I was climbing out a window …).  Not the best view, just grey concrete all around — but there is a huge, glowing moon in the dark sky to greet me.  Took that first sip of wine as I gazed at it hanging overhead, and felt that wave of calm wash over. [Musical intro plays].  I started to remember about those beautiful summer nights in France … [“France i-i-in summer …”].  And off we go into the song!  Yup, the story gets that specific!

Keep in mind, I’ve never actually been to France.  But it’s my job as the singer to make the listener believe that not only have I been there, I am in LOVE with this country.  Vive la France!

As the song continues, the listener should hear and feel that it’s actually progressing — both lyrically and musically.  Verse 1 shouldn’t evoke the exact same feelings and way of singing as Verse 2.  (If it is, a change in the lyric might be called for).  Even Chorus 2 should be sung with a different purpose than Chorus 1, despite having the exact same words.  Otherwise, it all just sounds the same.  It’s like reading a book where nothing happens — there’s no climax.  Boo!

So doing this interpretation exercise really helps in that you have to make conscious decisions about how the singer’s emotions and thoughts are changing throughout the song, and in turn, make decisions on how to sing certain parts of the song, bring in harmonies or not, blah, blah, blah.  But it’s not blah, blah, blah — it’s the fun part!

Harmonies: I also believe that harmonies really need to have a purpose in a song.  They can’t just be there to fill up space or “sound nice.”  They should be another voice or voices that are contributing to the story in some way.  So it goes back to what I talked about in the song interpretation section.  You get the picture.  Moving on …

Recording & Mixing: Definitely my weak point.  I just don’t know how to do it well yet, and it really is an art in itself.  So I’m not totally happy with how the actual sound of the recording came out, but I just didn’t have the time to spend on perfecting it.

The New Learning: Continuing to challenge yourself to try new things in songwriting is so key to growing as an artist and keeping the passion alive!  My new learning for this song was coming up with some piano chords and recording the piano piece from my keyboard to the computer.  Just a few months ago, I didn’t have enough confidence to think I could do it.  Now, the doors have opened to future songs that don’t just have to feature the guitar — and that can lead to some really different songwriting!

Alright, if you got this far … thanks and congrats!  Now it’s your turn ;)

Here’s my questions for you, dear readers:  What is your creative process?  What or who is your muse when your stuck for inspiration?  

– Cafe